My 30+ Year Journey to FINALLY Losing Weight!

Hi, my name is Cynthia. I’ve been heavy (a gentler word than fat) all of my adult life. It started in puberty. I was a normal weight kid til then. But when my body started to change in puberty (developing curves and big breasts), a brand new problem arose.

I was at a summer vacation Bible school when the Pastor was pinning name tags on all the kids chests. When he got to me, he looked for where he could pin it, then awkwardly handed me the tag so I could pin it on myself. Can you imagine a 12 year old with the body of a full grown woman? I bet you can! Especially today when there are so many hormones and junk in our foods that are causing young girls to mature a lot earlier and faster.

I wanted to hide my body because of the unwanted attention from men. I was a kid and grown men would hit on me. I even got flashed before I’d even seen a man’s penis intimately!

I also hated having my picture taken and the only pictures taken of me were without my knowledge or consent. It was very rare for me to pose for a picture (curse those group photos at school and work). Even today, I still hate taking pictures!

I tried all kinds of diets throughout my adolescence. My Mom made me try this one and that. You see, my Mom was a petite woman, so I was an embarrassment. None of the other kids dealt with a weight problem. Not my siblings, my cousins, not even kids in my class, just me. None of those diets worked…or I should say, I wouldn’t stay on them long enough to get any real results. Eating lettuce and bland baked chicken or fish was not my idea of fun!

Over the years, I’ve tried more diets than you can shake a stick at. Maybe you know some of them: Weight Watchers – with those meetings and embarrassing public weigh-ins, Slimfast, terrible tasting “diet” meals, the liquid diet that Oprah made famous, and don’t forget the diet pills, just to name a few! I bought exercise equipment that turned into clothes racks. Exercise tapes from Jane Fonda to Richard Simmons, all the way through Tae Bo that I only watched a few times and ended up at garage sales. Hypnosis was supposed to get me to hate donuts. A lot of good that did! Nothing was working for me and I continued to gain more weight every year. So I finally just gave up trying and (sadly and reluctantly) resigned myself to the fact that I was probably going to be fat the rest of my life.

But then on September 11, 2021, after 30+ years of off and on attempts at losing weight, everything changed… {NEXT}